Something strange happened yesterday while I was writing –
or, rather, attempting to write – a scene in a new Lena Jones mystery. The
scene didn’t work; it just lay there, stagnant and stinky as a four-day-old cod
fillet.
Here was the original set-up. P.I. Lena Jones is
interviewing the next-door neighbor of a murdered family. The Scottsdale,
Arizona, neighborhood is pricy and the homes accordingly elegant. The neighbor
– who was out of town during the slaughter, and can prove it -- is not a
suspect, but Lena thinks he might be able to give an overview of the family’s
activities in the months leading up to the murders. I had originally planned to
write the neighbor as one-half of a married gay couple, an affluent, educated,
art-collecting nice guy who had nothing but good things to say about the dead
family. Because I believe in setting the “scenic” part of a scene, I went into
great detail about the interior of the neighbor’s house: white leather
furniture, a wall-sized painting by de Kooning, a sculpture by Giacometti, etc.
As the interview continued, the man’s partner came into the room. He, too, was
an affluent, educated, art-collecting nice guy who contributed more
warm-hearted stories about the deceased family.
The scene didn’t work. It was dull as dirt. All that
niceness -- ick! Where was the conflict? Where was the tension?
As I sat there staring at the computer screen, an idea
popped into my head. Why not take the same house and the same elegant
furnishings, but turn this neighbor into someone you would not ordinarily
associate with such tasteful, high-art surroundings?
The minute the idea popped into my head, so did a new
character. For the few hours, I pounded out a scene that was surprising,
unsettling, and even a bit scary. My fingers flew over the keyboard, typing in this
new character’s startling dialogue and some very creepy body language. There
was incredible tension in the scene because an ethical and personal conflict now
existed between my P.I. and the new character. Lena was repelled by him
– and also a bit frightened. Yet she needed to stay in that elegant house
alone with him in order to get information about the murdered family.
The weird thing about all this is that I don’t remember
writing a word of it. I was so lost inside that creepy new character’s head
that I, as an individual, ceased to exist.
When Hubby (it should be noted here that he’s a
psychologist) came home from work, I told him what had happened.
“You had an out-of-body experience,” Hubby explained. “It's the
same type of experience that method actors use to create their characters. You
forgot about yourself and what you originally wanted to do, you forgot about your own ideas
and expectations for the scene. Instead, you got deep down and dirty into the
mind, heart, and soul – or lack thereof – of this new character. When you
disappeared, he emerged. That’s why the new scene works so well, because it
wasn’t something you, as you, created. You were channeling him, and he created
the scene – not you.”
Creepy.
This morning over coffee, we continued to talk about
yesterday’s odd experience.
“You’ve often wondered why you can write two separate series
that are so different in tone, from the first-person point of view by two protagonists who have nothing in common,” Hubby said. “But the answer’s
easy. You’re using the same method -- method acting, if you will -- that you did in writing yesterday’s scene. When
you’re writing Lena, for instance, you become her. Lena, because of her
difficult childhood in all those abusive foster homes, trusts no one. She has
compassion for crime victims, but her compassion doesn’t extend to allowing anyone
to get close to her. Because of her global mistrust of the human race, Lean’s personal
relationships – the few that she has – are a mess. She lives in a perpetual
state of anger, is always close to the breaking point, and she has an itchy trigger
finger. This is a dangerous combination, and that’s why readers either love Lena
or are repelled by her. But regardless of all her mental and emotional issues,
Lena has a strong, unwavering mission in life – to bring justice to the dead.
“Teddy, the zookeeper in your Gunn Zoo books, is just the
opposite. Because she was given so much love as a child, she likes just about
everyone. She trusts people – at least until they prove themselves
untrustworthy – and she loves both her fiancé and the animals she cares for at
the zoo. Her personal circumstances are a little unusual: a houseboat for a
home; a self-centered, multi-married, clotheshorse of a mother; and an
embezzling father on the run from the FBI who is always turns up just in time
to wreak havoc in her life. But for all this, Teddy remains an
uncomplicated woman with only one major tic: her mission – besides protecting
the animals at the zoo -- is to not become her mother.”
And yes, Hubby
continued, when I write these highly divergent characters, I totally
immerse myself in them the same way a method actor immerses himself in a
role. I put myself and my own personality aside, and instead, I live,
breath, move, and speak like that character. For all intents and purposes, I am
that character.
Which is what happened yesterday. I was so busy being my new
character that I put aside all my previous plans and simply “channeled”
the new guy. I didn’t force my ideas about character on him. Instead, I slipped
into an altered state of consciousness and let him tell his own story, thus surprising
the holy living hell out of myself.
Stephen King once said, “If the writer can’t surprise
himself, how can he surprise the reader?”
King was right. But there’s an irony here. And it is…
Only by losing yourself can you find your story – and your most
intriguing characters.
9 comments:
Other than the not remembering that I wrote it part, I can relate to this. Since I play on stage as well as with a keyboard, I have always seen the connection between losing yourself in a character as you are writing or as you are performing. The best actors are those who become the character, not just person walking through a scene spitting out words. LOL
The similarities between acting and writing are amazing. I love 'becoming someone else' for awhile and feel like total immersion is the best way for me to create authentic characters. On stage or on the page. It's all about telling the story the best way possible! Thanks for a great post.
Absolutely, unequivocally true.
Hi Betty - I had an acting teacher years ago who said we have hundreds of characters sitting in the gallery, accessible any time we want. Love your post!
Hi Betty: I so loved the analogy between acting and writing. What was also inspiring was your initiative to take a different path from the stereotypical. True artisttry and an awareness that is greatly appreciated. Thank you for sharing this experience...
Trish Dolasinski
Striving to be in the heads of my characters is something I work for but remaining there for enough time to get a decently long piece of writing complete is a challenge for me. I am too easily pulled out. But maybe it's because the piece is boring even to me. Maybe that's my real problem. Thanks for this piece. This gives me something else to think about.
Yup, that's creepy. Me, I'd have thrown them the four-day-old cod fillet. Thanks Betty (and Oscar for referring me here.)
Hi Betty, I've never had an obe like you describe, or any other kind, but when I forget the content of something I've lately written, I know that whatever I wrote was good. On the other hand, the parts that I struggle with and remember every detail of, I know I'll have to rewrite. I've gotten to where I can anticipate that this-is-going-to-be-all-uphill feeling within a few sentences, and I shift my grip right then, and save myself that frustrated, hungry feeling.
I enjoy your zoo series, but started to read one that takes place in Az and was sorry to see your character doesn’t like us snowbirds, I guess it bothers me and will take any enjoyment away. Jean from Minnesota. Ps. I definitely do not drive slow.
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